I Can't

I can't
those two words
keep echoing in my head
i wonder what she said after those two words
they torment me
those two words
i can't
her reason as to why we can't date
cut they still give me hope
cause they say she's thought about it
they could turn into two different words
i can

Misery

The blues return

Like some kind of stalker

Always showing up to remind me

There is no escape

They’ve got a choke hold on me

I keep getting swallowed in misery

It’s my best friend

He won’t leave me be

But now, misery, is all I have

Every day

It feels like the same

Always catching me unaware

Monster

I’m walking down this street

People run and hide

As if they see some kind of monster in me

I see them scatter into their groups

Pointing and quietly whispering about me

Spreading their vile rumors about me

As if I’m some kind of monster

They avoid me like the plague

I guess if they come close to me

Something bad might happen

And they could get sick

As if I’m some kind of disease

I keep walking down that street

Not paying any attention to them

As I'm Sitting

As i'm sitting in this chair

thinking about what i'm going to do

i can't shake away the feeling

this feeling of loneliness

the sadness of that hole in my heart

all that emptiness and pain

it won't go away

like an ominous shadow

it just follows me arond

sucking all the joy and life out of me

like a vampire sucks blood out of its victim