Should have done this
Could have done that
And all this
Would have never happened
It doesn’t matter now
It’s all in hindsight
My headache a dull reminder
Of what happened that day
My car was ruined
Her SUV just fine
The cops came faster
Then a speeding bullet
I wish I could say
It was just a dream
That it never happened
That I’m going to wake up soon
And that this was just a bad dream
But its not it really happened
I was heading from the armory
To go relax in the hot tub
At the Centre
She was coming home
From a long day of work
To be with her husband
It shouldn’t have happened
It was unfair
But like they say
The show must go on
And so must life
Even if we don’t want to
Can I still be the same?
Can I still be caring?
Or even be happy?
Like I was before?
Or will I be different?
Where will I go from here?
I don’t know
If I could ever be that person
The person I used to be
The one I strive to be
The way she looked at me
As if I was some kind of monster
My worlds become shades of blue
No longer full of color
Its like I’m watching
Somebody else live my life
Sucking away all the color
It’s becoming black and white
I still have nightmares
From that day
The way she looked at me
It haunts my dreams
I keep yelling
I’m not a monster
